My jam for the day...

From The Inside

[Alice Cooper / Bernie Taupin / Dick Wagner / David Foster]

I got lost on the road somewhere
Was it Texas or was it Canada
Drinking whiskey in the morning light
I work the stage all night long
At first we laughed about it
My long haired drunken friends
Proposed a toast to Jimmy's ghost
I never dreamed that I would wind up on the losing end

I'm stuck here on the inside looking out
I'm just another case
Where's my makeup where's my face on the inside

All got your kicks from what you saw up there
Eight bucks even buys a folding chair
I was downing seagrams on another flight
And I worked that stage all night long
You were screaming for the villain up there
And I was much obliged
The old road sure screwed me good this time
It's hard to see where the vicious circle ends

I'm stuck here on the inside looking out
That's no big disgrace
Where's my makeup where's my face on the inside

“When you want to fool the world, tell the truth.”

—	Otto von Bismarck

Waylon Jennings & Willie Nelson - Luckenbach, Texas

I've got my song and I got you with me tonight

The best thing about today was X singing this to me in our hotel room-

The only two things in life that make it worth livin'
Is guitars that tune good and firm feelin' women
I don't need my name in the marquee lights
I got my song and I got you with me tonight
Maybe it's time we got back to the basics of love



X is so silly. Shirtless in a pair of basketball shorts. tattoos covering his arms and chest, he fakes a twang and doesn't really concentrate on the chords.


And it was sweet, but also sorta ironic. Should we get out of this? Would we be fools to give this up? Sitting in that  room on our day off ,both too tired to do anything but take long baths, watch bad tv and stretch out on our king sized bed! 

I played Journey's Faithfully (They say the road ain't no place to start a family/ right down the line it's been you and me/ loving a music man ain't always what it's suppose to be...) at the venue last night. There was a piano in his dressing room. I've played since I was a little girl. I consider it my party trick backstage, but would never want to play onstage. X's band does have some ballads, but nothing to the caliber of November Rain or anything. I have crippling stage fright. I would cry if anyone made me stand up infront of a say 200 people let alone thousands.

I think I'm gonna try this.

I am frustrated with trying to explain things here, or else I really don't like how things look on paper... I don't want to be " Fragment ideas and too many pronouns. Stop it, come on. You're not making sense now. You can't make them want you. They're all just laughing ..." So I think I might try to do some of theses... pillaged from writetodone.com

1. Talk to a monkey. Explain what you’re really trying to say to a stuffed animal.
2. Do something important that’s very easy.
3. Try free writing.
4. Take a shower; change clothes. Give yourself a truly clean start.
5. Write from a persona. Lend your voice to a writing personality who isn’t you.
6. Get away from the computer. Take pen and notebook, and go somewhere new.
7. Quit beating yourself up. You can’t create when you feel ass-whipped.
8. Stop visualizing catastrophes, and focus on positive outcomes.
9. Stretch. Maybe try vacuuming your lungs.
10. Add one ritual behavior. Get a glass of water exactly every 20 minutes. Do push-ups. Eat a Tootsie Roll every paragraph. Add physical structure.
11. Listen to new music. Try something instrumental and rhythmic that you’ve never heard before.
12. Write crap.
13. Finish something.
14. Write the middle. Stop whining over a perfect lead, and write the next part or the part after that.
15. Do one chore. Sweep the floor or take out the recycling. Try something lightly physical to remind you that you know how to do things.
16. Make a pointless rule. You can’t end sentences with words that begin with a vowel. Limits create focus and change your perspective.
17. Work on the title. Quickly make up five distinctly different titles. Meditate on them. What bugs you about the one you like least?
18. Write five words. Literally. Put five completely random words on a piece of paper. Write five more. Try a sentence. Could be about anything. A block ends when you start making words on a page.

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