Christmas is quite.

I'm not in a good place. I'm anxious. I just nearly lost it listening to I'll be home for Christmas. I'm sad and scared and worried. I'm stuck. I need to get out of here, but in doing so am I running away from one person who loves me? Sometimes I think I need help, but I don't think I could handle being in a facility. I also don't think I should drink. I just don't know what to do anymore.

Answer in song lyrics

 Yourself:: She stepped off the bus out into the city streets Just a small town girl with her whole life Packed in a suitcase by her feet- Fallen Angel Poison or Yeah, my girlfriend takes me home when I’m too drunk to drive And she doesn’t get all jealous when I hang out with the guys She laughs at my dumb jokes when no one does She brings me mexican food from sombrero’s just because (yeah, just because)- Josie Blink 182

 Your friends:: I don't want your big city rising, I don't want your sliver lining, I don't want to be a tattooed millionaire- Tattooed Millionaire Bruce Dickinson. or And I played guitar in a long-haired rock and roll band She asked me why the singers name was Alice I said listen, baby, you really wouldn't understand- Be my lover Alice Cooper

 Your crush/bf/gf.:: Blue jean baby, L.A. lady, seamstress for the band Pretty eyed, pirate smile, you'll marry a music man- Tiny Dancer

Are you a guy or girl?: Early one mornin' the sun was shinin', I was layin' in bed Wond'rin' if she'd changed at all If her hair was still red.-Tangled up in Blue Bob Dylan

 Where do you want to be right now?: Well I never thought I’d make it here in Hollywood... I never thought I’d ever Want to stay... What I seem to touch these days has turned to gold... What I seem to want, Well you know I’ll find a way- After the glitter fades Stevie Nicks

 Describe how you feel right now: Hello, welcome to the show Thought we broke up years ago What's up, I just shit my pants Gambled and I lost Good times, just blew out my knee I've fallen and I can't get up Oh shit, I think I broke my back Where's the wheelchair? -Falling apart Lagwagon

 Give me a word of advice:: Some friends become your enemies, some friends become your family, take the best with what your given, some say die but this is living.- Good Charlotte

Tell me something uplifting:: Give me a chance to shine and I will blind the world, take a stand be the voice of those who cannot be heard.- Transplants

I didn't run away to come home the same.

From the mixed-up files of Mrs. Basil E Funkweiler

The best thing I read about my husband today:

"X doesn't need a pick up line, he just needs to stare at you for five minutes and say 'hi'"

WTF? If anyone stared at me for 5 minutes I'd run away regardless of how hot, sexy, sex god status they are. Fan girls are so weird.

You keep me on my knees

Mummified in your arms
You keep me on my knees
waiting for
begging for.
I lost my voice in a fire.
- Spitshine Sonata- The Bled

It was only the monotony of the highway that oppressed me.

The Other Side of the Hedge, by E.M Forster

“Because nothing is as good as you can imagine it. No one is as beautiful as she is in your head. Nothing is as exciting as your fantasy.”

Chuck Palahniuk