The days keep draging on...

I can't breath out of my left nostril. The air in the bus is making my eyes burn, and even though it's only June it's on 24/7.

My new favorite thing to do is look up places to live, but I'm not very good at it. I've only ever lived  the sunny states. I also don't want to be alone. So I feel that I'm doomed ( manifest destiny?) to live a circular existence. I want someplace magical. Paris? I don't speak French, and X would think it was cool for awhile, but he'd never be into the whole ex-pat thing. I think the most exciting thing for him about overseas tours is Absinthe. And either that would quickly wear off, or I'd be stuck in a foreign land with a husband I don't want...

I've read some books, watched some movies... carved out notches in the bunk railing... (Just kidding about that last one, or am I?) 

I tried to watch Raging Bull today. I didn't like it. X pointed out that it was a four star movie, but I guess it was too art house for me. I lost intrest, made jokes that the blond lady was Gwen Steffani, and wondered if Italians were really that angry.

Summer tour is kicking up... Which means busy busy, outdoor dates. HOT. Teenagers, HOT. I'm cranky just thinking about it.

Famous last words of a fool.

And all he had to say to break my heart was that I was breaking his.
His words collapsed me on the bed.
" Don't make fun of me."
Seriously? Was I suspose to walk on egg shells around him?
To fuck off were the first thing that came to mind,
but he looked hurt.
he looked as if I had crossed a line.
That line were it was us against them,
I was now one of them. One of the people who only cared if he bled.
I'm sorry. 

Keith Urban - Without You (with lyrics)

Are you on your way

Don’t you miss your family and your friends
Don’t it feel like this road, never ends
And don’t your freedom make you feel so small
You knock one down, and there's another wall
And so you let it creep back in your memory
And you let it live there, in your mind
Because your to scared to be alone
Your to scared you’d be left behind

Are you one your way
Are you on your way yeah
Are you on your way
Are you comin home
(x2)

Don’t you hate livin with that emptiness
You’ve got someone, but your alone in this
Don’t you hate waiting on, a better day
You know that it will leave you, as soon as it gets here anyway
But you can’t erase it, from your memory
So you let it live there in your mind
Because your to scared to be alone
Your to scared you’d be left behind

Are you on your way
Are you on your way yeah
Are you on your way
Are you comin home
(x2)

When are you comin home
When are you comin home

It’s kinda like a race in time
You can’t see the sign
But you were not alone

So even if you change your mind
You can’t turn back time
But you were not along (you were not alone)

Are you on your way
Are you on your way yeah
Are you on your way
When are you comin home

- Middle Class Rut

middle class rut - are you on your way

I'm nothing without you.